Villains

Do you remember Lex Luthor? What am i saying? Who does not know the guy? I am not a Superman expert but I know at some point he wanted to destroy the world. Ok fine, he wants to rule the world. What about Sepiroth? Any Final Fantasy geek knows who he is and what he intends to do with the planet.

So what is my point?

Everyday I see a good reason to destroy the world. For the past few days, I have been thinking like a super villain. I see people who have no care for anyone but themselves. I see people who would not help an old lady who tripped and fell on her knees. I see people who live like they are kings and queens of the land and laugh at people who had less than what they have. People who pull other people down or step on other people just to climb the corporate or social ladder. And this my friends, are people from the real world. Not for movies or tv shows, I mean these people are REAL. I'm sure, because I work with some of them.

I started to understand why these villains would like to destroy the world. I understand why the opt to just press the reset button and start all over again. I mean what kind of society spend billions and billions of dollars on an event and have countries that starve to death. Why do we as a species let that happen? Why do we have fashionistas and still have people having a hard time getting food on the table for their families?

If I had the capability to destroy the world I would....

Then I see my son...and I now know why I shouldn't....

Rant #1

What the hell happened to me?

I used to be a guy that did not care much about the world, or what it thinks of me. I was a happy go lucky guy who looks at life day by day. I don't know. I just feel bad today. My wife thought I was mad at her, and I was not. That made me feel even worse.

I don't really know, I feel kinda down lately. Maybe because of somethings that I expected to be something else. After 5 years in the company, I was hoping to be somewhat of a manger or something. I am still a Team Lead, well, Senior Team Lead ( which means that they get to throw manager stuff at me to do without the salary nor the position ). But I have been bitching about that for the longest time now so I don't think that's it.

My son does not know me anymore. There was one time that me and my wife came home, I got him and brought him to our bedroom. I started playing with him and my wife was standing and going to change into something comfy. She went into the bathroom, and my son cried like he was being injected with something. I mean there were tears flowing, not dropping, flowing. I just thought that he was missing Mommy and all. When my wife got back he was laughing. When it was my turn to change, he didn't even mind me. He kept on playing with his mom. Great.

I just hate my world today

Updated

Hah! I am back!

Someone commented on this blog and I thought...hey, I like this blog, so I'll Use it again. My apologies to those people going to this blog and finding it empty....

Anyways, what is happening with me...

1. We bought a car last year. A 1996 Mazda Protege Gen 2. That's a 1996 Mazda Familia. We kinda bought it out of the blue since my wife was preggy and I can't imagine myself looking for a cab Monday morning to go to UST. Here she is



2. I have a son. Paul Nathan Trinidad. My God, I can't start on how lucky we are to get a baby boy like him. Anyways check out my multiply site for updates and pictures.

Well those are my new things. Promise I will update this blog from now on...

Angel

Been a while...

In a world where there is war, people die needlessly everyday. In a world where there is hunger, disease, pain, sorrow, it is really hard to find something pure in this world. Something that would lift yourself up from whatever ashes you came from. Something that would give hope to the masses. Something that would say "Hey, it will be alright".

When my wife said that she has something to show me in YouTube, I just said "OK". No biggies, just another good video. She was all excited about it. When we got home, I just lied down in bed and she loaded the video. It was the video from Britain's Got Talent. Conny, a six year-old girl, sings Somewhere Over The Rainbow. I just thought hey, I've watched my share of that, kids singing sweet songs. The moment I heard her voice, I was stunned. I felt light crying, but I think I was too shocked that some of of my bodily functions are not working well. She was really good. I mean really, really, really really, REALLY GOOD! I know it's a cliche, but her voice was of an angel. It was pure, from heaven, from God. She made feel that I was not worthy of hearing her voice. It made me feel unpure, but at the same time she was cleansing me. I hardly say nice things about stuff that I see or hear. But this one is really way up my list of things I want to hear again before I die. Enough of me, here watch it yourselves....

Star

I always wanted to be a star. When I was a kid, I wanted to be in everything. Not necessarily be "in" like trendy but I want to be always in the loop. Sometimes, I do crazy things just to be noticed.

What is it like being the "star"? Everyone around you knows who you are. Just hearing your name would get reactions like "Ah yeah I know him" or "Yeah, he's from _____, right?". Everyone does know you. BUT, does everyone like you? You may be popular, you maybe a household name. But who is around you? Who holds your hand and says nice things about you even if you're not around?

I just learned one thing, the hard way. It's better to be at the background, laying low and keeping things "steady", rather than be in the spotlight and wither away.

Slow Slow Slow

It's been a long while since my last entry....

My PC acted up again. It's because we cannot browse some secure sites and I have been trying fix the damn thing. I looked every on the web to fix my prob but it was in vain. Still looking though.

I have just finished reading Angels & Demons by Dan Brown. I read that during the Da Vinci Code fever. I wanted to read something and that's one book I liked reading again. I am still facinated by the Illumiati brands. It looks so cool. The symmetry was brilliant. I don't know if the brands were actually a historical fact or a made thing by the author. Still, it's brilliant. And what is more brilliant is this....

I started playing RF again. I started playing back when it was just starting with LevelUp PH. I grew tired of it coz I had to shell out dough. I was browsing and found a private server that is free. So I downloaded the client and viola, lvl 23 Bellato dude. Hehe, nice...

I'll ping you guys with updates....kinda slow today.....

Seven Random Things

Been a while huh....Sorry for not updating my blog as usual.. I have been kinda busy for the past few days, and my eyes are hurting when I stare at the PC for a while. Maybe I need glasses again.

Well my wife tagged me and I need to write 7 random things about me. Well, I can tell you a lot of things but let's start with these 7:

1. I don't like to be told what to do. Maybe because of my boastful nature. I mean I know what right things to do, just don't tell me ( like this task ).

2. I am a jack of all trades, but a master of none. I am a very quick learner, but I tire out fast and move on to the next new thing. It's like I know a lot, but I do not really consider myself an authority to any of them.

3. You can leave at any place that has a TV with cable, PS2 with games that I like, a DVD player and some Pancit Canton and I'll be ok for weeks to come. Just give me food and something to do and I will be quiet.

4. I like reading books. I don't really love reading but I would rather have a good book on a cool Sunday afternoon rather than go to a bar Saturday night.

5. I don't have one music preference. My CD collection ranges from Vienna Teng to Tears for Fears to Godsmack to Pearl Jam. If I like it, I'll listen to it ( and I don't care what you think ).

6. I always wanted to have some special power, preferably something that would not alter what I look like. I like the power of The Shadow. You know, the Alec Baldwin movie where he plays a hero that can cloud people's minds. That's cool.

7. I am a tinker. I like to try things that has machinery. I often play with our old TV set. Not play like a toy, but open it up and check if all transistors and capacitors are working. Sometimes, my brother yells at me because he can't find his tester.

So that is it. And like the good blogger that I am, I tag Enoc, Larry, and Den.